What is to come.... ?

The last couple of months have been interesting, full of a lot of things, that have changed me. Often, i find myself thinking. As i watch the rain drops fall down the window, slowly, the gravity of time passes by. Next thing i know its been over 10 minutes that has passed. And all i did was watch the rain, falling.
Time is a funny thing, we grow old in time, people pass in time, and in time we all have a life.
We all see what is now in our lives. We might still be studying, be a full time or part time worker, some of us may have children ( not the majority who reads this blog), some may be struggling to find a job, and some, well some might not even know what is ahead for them. And really none of us do.
Right now, we all have a purpose. Everything has a purpose. The rain falling down on the window, the rain has a purpose.
I'm just going to share a little story...
This year, i was certain i wanted a prophecy,  Through someone from God, i was set out to find one. To hear from God. I went to a few different churches and got people to pray for me, and i worshiped and worshiped.. and i didn't have anything. A lot of my friends were hearing from God in miraculous ways, through different people praying, through other friends, and through the holy spirit. anyway, nothing yet had happened for me through someone.
About two or more weeks ago, i had a vision, or picture in my head... ill describe it to you....
"Imagine the African desert, all orange dusty, hardly trees.. there was a river, right in front of me, a shallow one of course, about ankle deep. now imagine looking across the little river from the ground, and watching all these feet running through it... The feet were dark skinned, skinny and little,  without seeing faces i saw them pushing out little boats across the river... "
WEll that was my vision/ picture, i had no idea what it was, all i knew is that to me it meant something. With all my hope to get a word from someone, nothing came. I didn't doubt God for a second, i only doubted myself.
Last night Allan spoke at church, about surrendering yourself to God.. now, i had done this many times over and over again.. as worship came, people were getting prayed for p the front.. as i started to pray in tongues , i felt this chilling sensation... i knew God wanted me to show him that i am willing to surrender . So i walked up to miranda, who was up the front, as i got there, i knew God didn't want me to get prayed for ( though miranda's prayer was still great!! ) as soon as i reached the front Instantly everything was blocked out of my head. I couldn't even hear miranda speaking let alone the band.... As i opened my eyes from this moment, i knew God had shown me the rest of the vision.
From the other vision along the river, and the feet running, i saw-- " I turned to look up from watching the feet running through the water, a little black boy, with big eyes, and a massive smile grabbed my hand. He looked at me, and as i saw his smile, and his beautiful eyes, he said "com'on com'on".. i was running with them, having fun. "
In the next moment, all i could do was smile. All this year i had wanted God to give me a prophecy through someone,  to hear a word, or anything from someone. I never knew that someone would be me.

The painting of a life time.

Well it seems i have come to a point in my life where im stuck. Stuck between the arkward stage. what stage might that be you may wonder... well sometimes i wonder too. Stuck between being an old kid, or a young adult.. to be honest i have no idea what im classified as. I can muck around, on the odd occasion, with friends like tab, jordan, and jade... i mean we have to have the silly moments in life right? But its that stage where, you actually have to choose to be mature. Where you face life changing decissions.. what im going to do next year..?
I have no clue that im going to do next year, i mean i thought i did, but i know now that i don't. And i know God hasnt made it clear to me yet..

Just today, i got a note that stated my name "Kathy" on the front. Jenny said it was from lauren ( one of my good friends) It stated
"As i see the beautiful you are, surly you have been placed here for a purpose". This letter showed me many things from God, through lauren. On the paper it had a semi circle drawn. Underneth the semi circle it stated " You may only see the semi circle, but God has bigger plans then that. He's already painting dreams and passions on your heart" as i read this, i started o cry.

God knows my plan, he already has them, and i know he is painting them on my heart. Life is always what we want, as its not our painting to create, its Gods. We may see the semi circle of life, But Gos see's the full circle. He knows what is coming ! we just have to let him paint away, to write the passions in our hearts, to create the dreams we may have!

Also around the page was written "LOVE, COURAGE, PEACE, and PATIENTS" thats all it takes.

with out Gods future, I wouldn't even be here.

well, at the moment i just want to ramble on... i don't really know what im thinking or what to think, im just tired, can't sleep, and have had enough of nothing. To me this makes some sense, to you who is reading this it may make none..
LIFE- what a big and glorious thing right? i mean earth and all, the love, the loss, the pain and suffering, hate and furry, joy and peace, happiness and laughter... how can all this be just a simple part of life, but mean so much? Everyone wants to have a good life, an education, a solid career, a family, a life. I mean, thats what we seem to want, its what happens here on this earth... generations after generations.. Its hard to comprehend the amount of people that have actually been place on this earth. We see at least 10 people a day, who we most likely won't ever see again..
Seeze every opportuity? -- Lately i have learnt that being happy is the best option... You make someones day a lot better, or have the potentail to do so. Just a simple hi, a quick conversation, or a simple wave. Its all it takes. If your first impression to someone is dull, or doesn't include a smile, thats what you get back. After all what you see is what you get.
I have no idea why im rambeling on about this... i just want to keep going though so feel free to stop reading at anytime :)
My cat morris, has arrived near me... being all cute...
anyways
The other night i attended a formal, it was fun, had its good moments. and then it ended. Its amazing how all the good moments are the shortest, yet they are the ones that stick around.
Friends... God has blessed me with many friends, and some amazing ones. Tab really knows how to make me feel special. At the formal Yes i didnt have a date, but in all her goodness she bought me a crousage.. i mean, she went out of her way, just to make me feel happy.. and though i had already guessed that she bought me one, the thought was still amazing, And it was beautiful :) Just a simple   gift like tab and her goodness, i know comes from somewhere else.
I am so blessed with what i have right now, and sometimes i can forget that. I complain about my job ( cause i dont like it), i complain about the clothes i have, I complain about alot of things... WE all do! Yet there are some people in this broken messed up world who have NONE of what i have. Here i am sitting in a sheltered house, with heating, electricty, clean water, and a pantry full of food.
About 2 weeks ago at church, a lady came and spoke to us about her life. Shes an australian woman, who lives in a slum with her family. Constantly she helps her community, with their children, and is a giver, She is a gift to those thai people, who need help, who need God in their lifes, and she is only one example. I would love to travel the world, help people who arn't well off, help the needy, take photographs of the world, adopt, I DONT KNOW, i just want to be the light from God in someones world. Somewhere different then here. Although it would be though, This world is though anyway, and its not going to change in the blink of an eye... As much as i have plans and dreams, plans for my future, i really need to invision Gods future, because without his future, i wouldnt even be here. This is why i CANNOT wait till i finish year 12, and can get the heck away, start exploring and taking a hold of that future, Conqure God's plans and his dreams. i have to set my life on him, because if i dont do that day after day, where would that get me? where would that take all thos opportunties, and where would that leave all those people we can impact?
Yeppppppp im on fire now... once  i get started i just keep on going... well i should probably go as it is getting late and i want to get up and get school over and done with...
GOD BLESS YA MATEEEEEE
--- kath

happily ever after..

Recently I attended a friends wedding.. Man oh Man, did all the girls ponder about tying the not sometime in their future (and soon) aha ... It was a beautiful day, everything was perfect, and the way it should be. Its amazing that God has created us, to want to love, and to want to have someone. And for the majority of us, he has created that someone just for us. Weather we are ready or not, or if God is still Building them up into that person. Carolyn and Scott Patten now were wed, on the 15th of July. They were proof that God has created them just for each other, and they will continue to grow and love each other in their happily ever after. Everyone should have a happily ever after, if it hasn't come yet, im sure it will soon, as every happily ever after has its own story. Marrige is a beautiful thing, and one day it'll be your turn!

its all in my head.

Well, alot of things go through your mind. You can think about everything and anything. life makes you wonder all the time. We make up all sorts of things that don't even match reality. we can or  might think one thing, and another might think the complete opposite on the same sittuation. well thats what it can be like, we all hope for the best, build up the good thing in our minds and creating them into disapointment when realy kicks in, or life fails to succeed that hope, or mind blowing dream you wanted the eurge to happen so bad.. we have to make sure, pray, and think out the real reality of life, and our lives. because with out knowing it, we can fall. Fall into th trap of disapointment. And no matter how hard we try to avoid these situations, pretending everything is okay, that nothing went wrong, or is going wrong. We have to stick to the plan God has, trust in him. We can still hope, we all hope for a certain future, then create those dreams. But its okay to dream right? Well.... enough of me blabbering along about this.  It seems to get my mind ticking.

Peace out.
-- Kath