I don't really know where I was going to begin with this blog. It's hard to think of something interesting enough, but I realised even if you give up half way through, or find this boring- I don't care. So if you would like to continue... please :)
Well it's April- what the heck. Last time I felt like I blinked it was New Years. It's funny how time just keeps going, life just keeps going, (sorry for pointing out the obvious)
One thing that really made me realise this recently was a death I had heard of. And I know death has the tendency to make us think "YOLO, or live the best life- cause you only get one, or Tomorrow may never come" Yes, all those things come rushing to our human heads when we think of death. Which I'm guessing is normal..And honestly- We're all going to have to face it weather we like it or not.
Anyway, it was a death that effected some of my family. (Not to many details) This man Had 3 young Children all under the age of 3, and a beautiful wife. He died about a year after being diagnosed with cancer. A man of good faith. A sad passing, that has effected many people.
What I'm trying to get at here is not death it's self, but the life we have to live. I guess I made me realise that no matter where you are in life, if you have the best job, if you have that girlfriend you always dreamed of, you just bought that new car, or if you simply got through the week without doubting yourself. It's the relationships that count. The people we may one day leave behind, or the people we have seen move on. We are ultimately created for relationship. Yet we become so caught up in the things we have, or the things we don't have.
-John 15:16-
I chose YOU, I wanted YOU, I appointed YOU. I set you where you are.
Speaking of I met up with a few older friends a few weeks ago, it was good to see them after a few years.. They went on about jobs, the new bands, celebrities, and life outside their own bubble...As I sat there wondering what they were living for, what they strived to get out of this life, how they could sit there talking about everyone else's relationships or faults... it got me realising. I don't want to do that. Though its not wrong, in fact its normal, I couldn't see what they were trying to achieve- making their lives seem better by bragging out others, or becoming so absorbed in the world that they don't realise what they're searching for.
(Going completely onto another subject but ill wrap it up I promise)
One thing that I have also learnt about is that our Souls and Spirits are different. Often I thought of them being the same. and in a way they are- but our Spirit is the living thing that God created for Him to dwell in, for us to be wholly pure. Our soul is the part that's us? the good, the bad, the damaged, broken, loved us. And our Body/Mind, where we fall, fail, face the day, or become weak at the knees. Often I found myself looking at only my Physical and mental state, it's so easy to not realise or forget with what the world tells us or feeds us that the Spirit doesn't exist. Well, it sure does.
Exodus 14:14
The Lord will fight for you, you need only to BE STILL.
What I'm getting at here is that we are all searching, for that deep love, Our spirit is searching for something the world can't give us. That no boy/girl, no drug, no materialistic, or possession can give us, we are all searching for that deeper relationship with God alone.
John 14:8
If God is all you have, you have all you need.
Now ask yourself honestly...When I mentioned death before- Did it scare you? To think that maybe you wont have tomorrow, Maybe it brought up someone you know that is ill or has passed recently, or maybe that you could just die. (sorry for the honesty)
You know, I think we can all get a bit teary, a little queasy thinking of it. But you know one thing?
If you can only see one thing- that Jesus already paid the price for ALL our sin, that He overcame the world. He has a plan for your life, and that deeper love you have been searching for can be filled with the love God has for you. Death may not look as gloomy, your life may start to feel like it has a purpose, and you wont be living for nothing.
I know that's how I feel, finding that pure and honest love that no one, not even my own conscious can take away, because He is in me. and He has overcome the world.
John 16:33
Take heart, for I have overcome the world.
Do me a favour- listen to this song. Not only is it amazing but I promise the lyrics are God sent. He will fight for you.
Peace readers,
Kath
