Have you ever been in a situation that you continually put yourself in no matter what? You constantly get reminded of the outcome and that it isn't going to turn out the way you want it to, but you're willing to cling onto every opportunity to get involved because no matter how hard you try, you are hoping that the outcome will change?
Here I find myself.
I won't explain this situation, because some people may get the wrong ideas. But I will tell you is that, sometimes, no matter how much effort, and support, friendship, love and investing you do in someone- doesn't change the way they are feeling. Though it might enhance your feelings, theirs will stay practically the same, because at the end of the day, it's not up to you to tell them what to feel, or do.
People can be in their own state of mind, and of course this is coming form mine.
Often, we can't change someone else's heart.
We get a choice who we invest in, who are our closer relationships, and the ones we will fight for.
Sometimes though, we don't. this is when we can't change other peoples minds, and who they have on their own heart.
It's tough isn't it?
Life.
*laughs* Sometimes, I feel as though it's a bit of a joke how seriously we can take it. But at the same time we can't take it like a joke. (If that makes any sense at all)
I like to take things as they come, I'm not really one to look to the future, or keep in the past.
Which can make it hard, because I need to do things like save, and think about where I want to be in 5 years time. But also for me, not knowing is the exciting bit. Who knows what is to come, it's an adventure!
Have fun live in the moment, speak your heart, live each day like your last....all that stuff.
When it comes to relationship- why so often is it so hard to be honest to the people closest to us?
Maybe we fear rejection, changing friendships, love loss, being hurt. We fear for our self.
Talk about selfish!
This world is so full of what our creator and His presence, and yet we still yearn to find fulfillment, because of the culture we live in. It's so very easy to get sucked into- being busy, wanting more, and taking. Which isn't bad. but when I think of how blessed we are to live the way we do, it concerns me how much more we still want.
The past few weeks, ill be honest. I have been focusing on my life only.
I have found I don't have a lot of time for other people, or to do things in general. I have been hurt, confused and busy. Working a lot more then I should, worrying a little more, and becoming consumed by my thoughts a little to much. But I haven't forgotten about others needs either, I guess what I mean is I haven't had time for others needs. It can be healthy to put yourself before others when you need a break. and lets be honest, we all probably do.
I hate that word, "busy".
I don't want to be busy.
But reality is most of us are.
I'm caught up in a culture where work and everything seems to get in the way of living. Of that quality time, investing in people.
One thing I would say to you is, it doesn't matter who you're investing in, who your encouraging, growing with. God places those people around us for a reason, instead of being selfish we need to take advantage of the fact that we are only here to love, and be an ambassador of the Lord.
So I have found, with the situation I was talking about before- is that when I focus on God and His plans. My own plans don't matter.
His way is already done, I just have to trust that He has a better plan for my life.
And He does.
Than all my worries, fear goes away, and my perspectives is that of the Fathers.
My direction is His, and my feet are on His path.
Creating my own disaster when I have forgotten how to stand.
Stand firm in His word, and on His path.
Life becomes such a mess and uncertain purpose when I'm not caught in His grace.
Thank you God for your constant love and reminder to my soul, that your love conquers all.
1 Peter 4:2-4
As a result, they do not live the rest of their earthly lives for evil human desires, but rather for the will of God. 3 For you have spent enough time in the past doing what pagans choose to do—living in debauchery, lust, drunkenness, orgies, carousing and detestable idolatry. 4 They are surprised that you do not join them in their reckless, wild living, and they heap abuse on you
Peace friends,
Kath
