Ironic?

Well this may in fact sound Ironic, but I'm actually finding it hard to find a time and a place.
Though I have faith and trust that I will soon. I guess what I'm trying to figure out is myself, and where I am meant to be at the moment. Also trying to figure out where I am meant to be has opened up my mind to other questions like "Is where I am meant to be for now"? Or "where in my life am I meant to take the next step, or move on"?
Its hard when you go through one massive chapter of life not knowing when the next one is going to come around, or what it is, or if it will actually happen. We all have dreams and desires in life, but at what point can we put them before needs and before we figure out how to get to those? Who knows if I'm making any sense, basically what I'm trying to say is, how will we ever know where we are meant to be in life? All it ever seems to be is finding where you belong, or finding exactly what you want to do and getting there. Getting where? A place where once we have what we want, or having been working hard to get... I think we are never going to be content in this life. It is only through the cross that we can have life to the full. Even then as humans we are broken. we can pick out the bad more from the good, because we are hurt and have been hurt. Though in tough situations, and discomfort in our hearts we will always have salvation. Even if I don't know where I'm headed in this life, I know where this one will lead.
Just some thoughts for tonight.

Kath

Growing myself in God.

Ever since I was a baby, Mum and Dad have always taught us, the value of having God and Jesus as our Lord and savior. Here is a part of my story from recent times....

For a while now, I have been putting off writing. Normally day-to-day, I write. Some may call it a journal, me- I call it my Journey book. It's where I write out my feelings, say what I've done during the days, what temptations and situations I have faced. I become raw, with myself. I haven't written that book in a while, and I think it is because my mind is trying to keep its self, from its self. Which my mind its-self can't exactly understand. Confusing huh? In other words I think the mind can be most frightened of its self.

I'll try and explain it. Every time, I say to myself "Okay, today I am going to write" I think up a bunch of things I can say. And then,  get distracted. Example: Tonight after contemplating writing, I sat down, and actually started to. About three lines in of writing this, I then needed to go and drive my sister to a friends house, in the pouring thunderstorm of rain. So it, of course took a lot longer then expected. So my mind didn't exactly get to end or write what I wanted to. So here I am making the most of it..

Have you ever felt a spiritual and emotional low before?
Well now it's my turn to be raw with you (who ever reads this).
It all began with a book. Something so simple, yet powerful to the mind. Words can change how we see things, situations, and can change how we see people. And this book did that for me.
I have many stories over the past few weeks that can relate to this. But I'll start from the beginning.
So this book- it was filled with wisdom and encouragement, on relationships, the heart and God. Basically after reading this book, my heart was changed for the better. To be honest I did in fact see my life differently, I saw people in different ways. Wanting to respect them for who they are and where they were at, just wanting to love them, for them. I no longer saw people in categories, everyone no matter who they were now could impact me just as much as I could impact them. after all we all have a story.  . I saw this world differently too, how love in this world can be low in love in some aspects.. But most of all, I saw God differently. In a good way of course. I saw God as the creator of all things good, more then ever before. And so though I have done it many times, this time, with all my heart and soul I gave every single corner of my heart to God, even the ones I didn't know about. And I tried my best to not leave one door shut, realizing that though I had still given my life to God, being human I still had control of certain things.. And with a breath of exhaustion and relief, I opened every door, and let God into every corner. Dark or not, he was going to be the center.
It started there, as far as I can tell life has been great ever since then. Family life was getting better, I felt better about who I was personally and in God.
Somethings are hard to explain and certain things I won't explain, but I felt as if God had taken the broken pieces of my life, the ones people didn't even know I cared for, the pieces of my life that were fragile and disturbed and didn't even know it..  and HE put them back where they should be. slowly but surely everything was coming together again. Family situations, friends, they were all becoming why I was happy. I put every bit of me and invested into relationships. Building others up.
Little did I know that when I was most happy the devil would use temptation, pain, hurt and guilt against me, and I was weak for it, because I was so happy. I would doubt. Suffering is still in this world, and will always be That's one thing we can't change, no matter who we are.
And all of a sudden, I became aware. More aware, of the sufferings, more aware of the pain and hurt the world brings. Physically, emotionally and spiritually. I'm not just talking about 3rd world countries, or where war happens. I was seeing war at home. Where we live, in a society that cares more about what they wear and how they look to the world then to themselves.

Like I said before how words can change how people see things. I saw the pain and hurt of words. Though the book I read gave me a positive experience on this, imagine what the opposite can do to someones heart.
I've seen lately that a simple " I don't like you" can turn someones world upside down.
Judging people, saying negative things about people, what good is that going to create? Yet we are stuck in a world where as humans we naturally do this. Why? I will never know.

I didn't really want to bore you with all this, It does sound a lot more intense in my mind.
Going on....
By this point,all I felt I could do was support, encourage and love everyone. In doing this, I then was getting annoyed at people way to easily. Seeing the flaws they had even more then what I did before, I began to become frustrated with them, finding it hard from where some people were coming from with their own ideas and thoughts. Though I still accepted and respected their thoughts and beliefs, I was gaining frustration towards people, and taking some things personally, which lead me to feel either betrayed, hurt, lost and discouraged.  All at once, again I was reminded, and I was aware of the emotional, physical and spiritual battle that goes on in each persons life. That there will be times where we clash, where we face crossed roads, and where the hearts of people won't always be content.
Realizing now that my love for God, and letting him work in my life was breaking my heart, because I did see the bad, the hurt and the suffering that people have, big or small. I was getting upset at the hurt that didn't have to be created, and was unnecessary. This for me, was emotionally, spiritually and physically draining. (As it would be for anyone).
Somehow through all of this, I have seen Gods strength in myself. The salvation that I have is beyond amazing, and the grace that I have been blessed with is incredible!

As for now, today, all I can do is keep trusting in God. There is defiantly always going to be though ground, bumpy roads and lows in this world. But God will always and forevermore reign over all things good and bad.

Finding it hard to know where to begin with this blog. I think trying to understand life and where I'm at is hard because though I know myself, I know that there is always room to grow, to understand, there is always going to be time, to take more to heart, to learn and to figure out where I am meant to be. Like my blogs name "there is a time and a place". we all have different times and places where we grow, love, hurt, suffer and endure the good and the bad. It's finding that balance in life where we are in that place, where we find peace. My peace is with Gods grace.
Tonight, I was challenged in ways I don't like to be challenged. Questions were brought up that I don't normally like to think about. Questions that are out of my hands, and only in Gods. These questions brought up things like death, hell and what is going to happen to us when we die. What I got out of it? Though we can pray for those and hope for those who don't have that relationship with God, and have a peace of mind that maybe one day they will choose for themselves to accept God and their Lord and Savior. That They will know Jesus. a mission in life that God has placed us here, to be the disciples in his name, and glory. That through us, others can find the salvation and accept and know Gods grace.
I think the part that got to me the most is that, people we know, people we love, will one day not be with us. That this life is in fact shorter then we realize and that while we have time we should share Gods love. I heard a quote once "How much can we hate someone, not to share or show them God and his love". It's so true, how selfish must one be to not share Gods love. After all it's the best thing anyone can experience.
So ill leave you with that thought streaming through your mind, as it gets to me every time.

Just remember, not matter what, one day, those clothes you wear, the hair cut you get, or even what kind of car you want, wont even matter anymore. All the earth will one day fall from our eyes, and we will be gone to this place. But our heart and soul, rests in the arms of Jesus. He is the only one who can save us from sin, he is the key to eternal life. Knowing him, accepting him, is the best thing that has ever happened to me. I can only hope and pray that one day you will find salvation and forgiveness in him too.

the fifth of April two thousand and twelve.

I haven't blogged in a while so I'm sorry if this is a bit on edge or boring but if you want to... keep on reading :) 

Well, my name is still Katherine Elizabeth Gerrand, and so far I'm still on a long fulfilling journey with God. Ill tell you a bit about what is happening in my world.
At the moment, trying to fit God into every situation, every day is my aim. I have recently read 1 Peter, 2 Peter, 1 John, 2 John, 3 John and Jude. Great books of the bible. I have also read "When God writes your love story" Its a book that changed my whole perspective on relationships. In a good way, a way where it has taken all of me to give every corner of my life to God. and not trusting myself, but relying on his strength only. It's amazing how happy you can become when God starts to work through you and around you. Joy is with you even in the saddest of moments, why? Because the holy Spirit is in me. Other things that are happening... I'm photographing a wedding next week with another photographer, been looking for other jobs ( but lets see where God will take me). I have started in a new small group, which God has really blessed me with amazing people, My parents have bought a new house in Ferny Creek, where we will move once Steph is 18. I have been writing a lot of my book, which is a book that no one will ever read haha

Another thought on my mind...
Have you ever wondered why we're here? On earth?
It's a question that comes to my mind everyday.
I know it's a hard question but it really gets me thinking.

When I think about life- I think about eternal life. The life after this one. Of course it gets my brain ticking even more, as it would for yours because eternal life is something we don't experience until well... we're dead.
When thinking about eternal life, I think about Jesus and his death. It really makes me appreciate the works God has done for us.
You know what gets me? That most people know what "Easter" is, they also celebrate it all year round. Yet a lot of those people are celebrating a bunny and chocolate.
One thing I found today working in the bakery packing all the hot cross buns is that people love them. Yet the idea behind them is the "cross" on the bun. Not many people understand that the "cross" on hot cross buns is representing all God did for us, and how Jesus sacrificed his own life for ours. Even though it is 2012 years after his death, the world is still revolving around him, yet people are blind to see it. This actually really makes me wander how this world can be such a harsh, place filled with pain, temptation, loss, hurt, guilt and suffering. And all these things blind people from the truth.

Just remember that through hardships, bad times, loss, guilt and pain, God is above all your sorrows, the temptations you face and the Challenges you face. Have faith and trust in him and the plan he has for your life, cause it sure is going to be an adventure. Until we see him face to face, and grace amazing takes us home!

Jesus be the center!

Every Corner

20/2/12

I seriously am not writing a lot at all lately. I can’t decide if it’s because I’m busy, or because writing everything down just makes me think deeper into every corner of my life.  Probably a bit of both.

Every corner- Well there’s something that opens many different doors into my life. Recently I have been reading a book; that basically is about letting God write my story. Letting him have control of the pen and taking everything and giving it over. And I have discovered it is actually a lot harder then I originally thought. Yes, I have given my life to God, but I have discovered there is always that part of me that I want to control. Why? Because as humans we want power, we want considerations and we desire earthly things.  Well, without God I don’t think we have any power. In our weakness he does good.

Doing good – Recently I have come across the idea that I want to be a better person. A better friend, and a better listener. We all want someone to listen to us. I have observed, while talking to others, and I think we all just like talking about ourselves. Or what’s going on in our lives, to give someone an insight into how we are. As much as I love talking to people about my life, Listening to others can be quiet beneficial. Having encouragement as one of my spiritual gifts it’s easy to forget that god can use me in different situations. God can use all of us in different situations. As a community we can help and be a part of this crazy life here.

Listening- Just the other day I had a Lady come up to me. Somehow we got talking. She ended up basically opening her heart, telling me things I wouldn’t dare to tell a stranger, let alone someone who I had never met. She was 72 years old, talking to an 18 year old. There she was, crying and pouring her heart out, about the difficult situations this life was bringing to her. And all I could do was listen. I discovered that day that listening, whether it be for anything is one of the most powerful tools to being a friend.

Being a friend- I love being a friend, and I know that I am incredibly blessed to have such amazing people around me. It can be hard being so close to many. There is a clear line on trust and faith. And I try my best to be a good friend. Which leads me to…

Love- “Becoming the person you’re looking for, is looking for”. We are all looking for someone right? And it can be difficult to trust others and God with life plans. I mentioned the book I was reading before. This is the corner of my life that I need to let God in more then what I have in the past. Though this corner of my life isn’t that full at all, I give God the reigns. Whatever happens God, I trust in you. Love isn’t just romantic love either, it once again is in every corner. 

To end this, I’m just going to say PEACE. 

maybe I should just write?

It’s amazing how different you can feel to the world. To everyone you’re just a mere human, a friend, and someone they know. People know me, they can see me for who I am. But we all block out some part of our lives, either to certain people, because it can be uncomfortable, or our past can effect our future. Me well, I see myself as being the girl next door. Though, in a way I feel like next door is miles away. I can’t figure out if I’m miles ahead or I’m the one whose miles behind.

People often say that you can be an open book, my book seems to be closed of to the world. Not because I want my life to feel private, but because I simply don’t know how to speak out, about anything. Fear, anxiety, and myself seem to get in the way of my voice. Maybe its my self I have to blame. I have many pages you could say. some interesting, and some not so interesting, but I have a story. Day to day, we all have a story. My story is just waiting, not sure what for yet. I know we all figure it out eventually.  And one day our own book and our chapters will end.

At the moment, I’m trying to figure myself out. I mean, I obviously know who I am, and what my values are. I guess I’m trying to find a real purpose. With just finishing year 12, we can feel pressured to know exactly what we want to do. Well I do know what I want in life, as I said I know my values. I guess I’m trying to figure out my next step, or what is actually going to happen for me next.

Dreams and hope, come to mind when I think of my future and what I’d like to get out of it. But Dreams and hope, also change, like our values. As we get older, we want different things, we see things differently, and sometimes life can dramatically change.

Recently, I have been in a situation, that changed the way I saw things, and the way things worked out, were not how I hoped. And this happens in life. Our hope, can sometimes become what we want to value most.  The situation soon flooded my mind for days, and I couldn’t stop thinking about anything else. I let the situation, become something that it wasn’t, which only lead into utter disappointment. Only then did I realise I had to pretend I didn’t care.

Sometimes I think It’s at out weak point when God decides to use us. That same week, God used me. I had the strangest feeling to act on something. And I did, because It was exciting, and new, and for once that week, I wanted to influence someone else’s life, instead of hoping everyone else would influence mine.  

God really showed me more opportunities, with strangers. It’s amazing how I, just the girl next door can share Gods love to others. And why not? There’s nothing better to do on this earth. 

Its been a while

Well, look at this, haven't blogged in ages. And here I am.
I was thinking about blogging last night. How I like to write, write my thoughts and the random things that come to mind. Then when I figure out what to actually write about, my mind seems to go blank.
Since I haven't written in a while. I mys well keep my life updated for you.
Well, since September, Wow it really has been 2 months to long.....
I have finished year 12. What a relief! didn't ever think I would get passed that one.
I have made many new friends.. due to my slight taste of freedom.
My freedom from exams comes in only one week. I have one left. And i'm not to worried about it.
For now, I'm busy.
Busy with trying to get my hours up, so I can get my P's.
Having lots of Photography work! Well, enough for now. I have recently photographed 7 beautiful families, done a 21st, and the church festival. This week, I am photographing a childrens concert for remembrance day. A lot of family friends, or mums friends have also asked me to take baby, family and children shots also. So the experience I'm getting has been great. And I'm so blessed, because I, not once, have had to ask for any of the opportunities i'm getting.
Also, home has been very busy, with the backyard being done, the driveway, and getting it all sorted for our party. It's going to be a big night.
Other then that, without getting to deep and meaningful, like I normally do..
I'm just excited! Excited for what is to come, what is going to change over the next year or even few months.
Anyways, that's all I really have to say.
peace.